Four Grace.

Song I wrote 3-4 years ago.  Ended up being a really cool thing – somehow it became completely based around the number four:

4 chords
4 notes strummed per chord
4 verses
4 lines per verse
4 syllables per line (roughly)
And – the Capo is on the fourth fret!

If only I could have made it so it was track four on the cd!  Does not fit there though, ha.  So it is track 6.

I do not usually write metaphorically or cryptically…but this one just happened that way I guess. 3 verses present a story…and each line of the fourth verse resolves that story.  The idea of beauty growing out of pain/loss.

Four Grace

Flames burn so far
Through trees so green
Watch as trees fall
Watch as trees die

Wind blows so hard
On seas with fear
Waves are too high
Waves take us down

Rain falls  so soft
And drowns all life
Like tears of God
Like pain Like loss

Life starts in ash
In deep sunk wrecks
Vows in the sky
Grace writes it’s name

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Lyrics. Lyrics. Lyrics.

Have not made much happen with the recording lately.  Started a new job and been really busy with many other things.  Was waiting for a part to arrive for my brother’s bass so I can finish that and also waiting for some lyrics to happen.

This week I have also been jamming with a drummer who is learning 5 of the songs so that we can play on October 21st in Cheyenne.  Super stoked on this….but it is going to be a lot a lot a lot a lot of work!

I am currently working on some lyrics.  as in right now.  It’s actually weird…when I write lyrics I just sing fake ones over the top until something sticks out.  And something did.  It is exactly what I needed.  While singing some fake lyrics, in fact singing the final song on the album and the final couple lines even – this line came out:

 “Your love is all I know”  

And since then, I have been working backwards from the end of the song.  It was just the inspiration I needed though to work from.  I think that sums up where I am in life.  I have stepped into many different emotions and many different faces throughout the years…from mini-bouts with depression, to trying to be super outgoing (didn’t work!!), to wanting to me some theological thinker (nope.) , to actually understanding and realizing my need for a savior, to not believing I am worth it to receive grace, and on and on.  All the different emotions, all the different trials.  Through it all.  The one thing I can say – is this Your love is all I know.  Maybe cheesy.  Maybe simple.  But really that is all that counts.  That we know the love of Jesus Christ.  And that is where I want to be with these songs.  I want them to represent some of the emotions I have felt the last couple years…good and bad.  But in the end, the only thing that I can truly, truly stand behind and sing about – is God’s love.

*Update – not the final lyrics, but pretty dang close:

Your Love is all I know

I find my hope in your arms again.
I find my rest in your arms….but confusion asks:

“How strong is your grace?
How deep is your love?”

Here is love, here is what I found.  It is not my works, it is not my strength that counts.
It is Jesus now.  I was Jesus all along.  It is Jesus.  For to the ungraceful I belong.

Sing, because it’s real.  If it is real, then I’ve lived a thousand sins more then grace should speak.
Let it replace the lies, that I have lived.  Let it be my words, be my prayers, be my love.

I walk so blind. So blind, so wrong of what the voice of grace can sing.
If love leads the way, if grace leads the way — these eyes should see and with clarity sing:

“Oh You are love.  You are love.
Oh take my life, take my words, take my songs, take my breath, to be your love.”

-Oh God  —  Be my love.

Your love is all I know.  Your love.
Your grace is all I know. Your grace.

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I have 2/3 of the guitars done.  Mainly just need to focus on doing lead guitar stuff.  But man….when I am listening to this, especially after hearing the lead stuff I am coming up with – it really moves me.  It puts me into a place where I am desperate to write.  I am not sure if I have written about what these songs will be about, but I am leaning towards calling this thing “A Conversation” or at least a starting place (might be a cheesy title, who knows).  But it is going to flow from a place of wondering what worth (if any) I could even think I have to God….and because of the way I think and act – I have no business even trying to enter the prescence of God.  and then taking that idea, struggling through it, and coming to the realization that I am worth something – not because of me, but because there is grace.  and there is love.

In the song “Author” by My Epic, the singer shares “I’m tired of trying to be, who you already say that I am – I am yours”.  And that sums up the place I am and have been for a couple years – really starting to understand the failures of who I am and at times beating myself up over it and not even wanting to try to accept grace for it all.  All in all, this cd – like much of what I write – will be about Grace.


So how do you listen to music??  Do you just grab the few songs you like of an artist and switch when you are finished with those tracks? – or do you like to listen to cds as a whole – from beginning to end?

I have found that I really like to listen straight through.  I feel like that is part of the journey of the music – starting where the artist wants you to start and traveling to the end with them.  The last Another Dream cd, I really desired people to listen that way as the order of the songs was very important.  Lyrically it went through the last few years of my life and finally ended with the hope I have found in Jesus Christ.  I felt like the last track on the album was one of the best songs I have ever written…but even better when put into the context of the failures and struggles I had written about on the cd.

In 2001 I heard a song called “Understanding in a Car Crash” by a band called Thursday.  It was amazing!  I loved it and could not get enough.  It was not until about a year later, after moving to Wyoming, that I actually saw the cd in a store that it came from.  It was called Full Collapse and it remains today one of my favorite albums ever.  This cd influenced A LOT of bands in the scene today as they really took charge of this whole singing and screaming style.  It was a perfect blend of hardcore and rock with some very interesting instrumentations and vocal styles.  I remember listening to this album straight through from beginning to end so many times.  There were of course songs that stuck out that I skipped to when I was not driving far or did not have a lot of time, but I remember driving at night and listening…

…In fact, I remember being drawn closer to God as a result of the music.   The first time I was driving home with this cd in the middle of the night, it was an amazing experience.  This band is not comprised of Christians, their lyrics do not point to God (although they can make you think), but I was pointed towards God through it.  One the first few listens I did not know the lyrics and all I could feel was the music as a whole…I could feel the emotion put into it and this feeling of reaching that was portrayed through how it was all put together.

I do not know if I can explain this feeling that I sometimes get when listening to music…sometimes just the chords, the rhythms, the melodies, and how they are put together – just completely point to God.  And somehow, at certain points when I listen to music (or when I write)…regardless of the words or lack of words or who it is playing or what they are playing…sometimes – I am pointed to God.  because music is spiritual.  Music is a part of us and a way we connect with God.  Music is an attempt of describing the beauty and emotions we feel… ultimately towards our Savior.  And it does not have to be with words.  This is what music means to me and what draws me into it.  It is like a mountain that points upwards to the creator or a stream that flows through the woods that can bring us to our knees or a snowfall that quietly reminds us of the beauty of Christ.  It is beauty.  It is love.

(So I got off on a different note here and just went with hit…but the point of this post was to say that in honor of the 10th anniversary of this pivotal album, Thursday is doing a tour where they are playing it through from beginning to end.  I saw this show last night…and it was amazing.  It is cool to hear songs live off an album we love…but to hear the whole thing straight through was an experience I will never forget.  Then followed by Underoath – whose music and lyrics both point me towards God…it was an amazing night – much better than watching the super bowl!!)

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